Therapy Cure for Depersonalization

Depersonalization – Treatment of I. 19 yo. Start of Depersonalization. Two years ago I ate a hash/weed brownie at a friend of mines house, by accident, I had no idea there was any weed/hash in the brownie. The effect did not kick in immediately, but on the way home I started to notice it. Once I got home, in bed, I started to feel real bad and panicky. I spent 4/5 hours laying in bed sweating from pure fear. Thank God I fell asleep after that. The next day I had serious brain fog, I had the feeling all my thoughts were in a mist, I could not find them. This lasted a week, during which I imagined the craziest possible causes. After a week, the mist lifted and I was Ok until a few months later, when I decided to smoke some weed with some of my friends. The day after I had serious brain fog again, and after the previous experience I was not worried, because the first time it had cleared by itself in about a week. This time the mist did not lift, I spent the next year and a half with brain fog, some days were worse than others, some days were pretty mild. This stayed until I decided to try truffles. The first time it went Ok, and I actually enjoyed myself. The second time everything became much more personal and it went a lot worse. This brain fog stayed around for a while. I was stuck in the brain fog until I started blowing and I got into a serious fight with my father. From this moment, I really started to experience serious depersonalization/derealization. Everything became more difficult and I got panic attacks regularly because I had no idea what was happening to me. I went to my GP and he had no idea what it was, so I ended up with talking to the mental health emergency services, who told me my situation was not serious enough because "I did not feel depressed, angry, or sad enough". DP/DR became too much for me to bear, so I started actively searching what in the world it could be. After quite some searching, I figured out I have DP/DR. I started to look for a therapist specializing in DP/DR, and I found Ben Meijer. Depersonalization. I want to shortly explain what DP/DR is. It felt like I was distanced from my body, and as if I was not in control of my body. It was like I was a puppet of myself. There was "something" between me and my body. This something felt like a thick cloud, a turbulent storm that made my life into a hell. Sometimes the clouds would clear for a very short moment, and would feel some emotions shortly, this was at most a second long. Therapy for depersonalization. Ive had 5 sessions with Ben, where we first treated my biggest trauma, the first hash brownie. I felt improvement very directly and immediately, like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders. Unfortunately, I was still in DP/DR. In the next 4 sessions, we treated the symptoms and my "traumatic garbage". With Ben, I got insight in how my mind and more importantly my spirit works. After the third session I had a very bad week, like I could not bear all the emotions. So much shit came up. I spent 3 days crying. While this may sound very negative, it was a milestone for me, i felt like I was dealing with my own feelings, and that felt good. After these 3 days, I felt very relieved, like the clouds had retreated and cleared. The week after that I made another huge leap, during the therapy session I really reconnected with my body. I'm still amazed how my subconscious mind translated the issues for me. During the EFT I focused on: I'm making contact with my body. And it happened. I saw how I fell down, as if I was a wooden doll and I grabbed onto a rope that went straight to my brain. When falling into my body, I reconnected the rope where it was severed. This was also my last session. After the therapy, I started to think about my youth a lot, about my personality and the family I grew up into. For me this was the key to further integration in my body. I felt blockages in my youth. I figured out that my DP/DR is directly related to how my father related to me. I don't want to go into details. It was important for me to truly take some rest. No watching TV, that worked counter to healing. I meditate and try not to judge. In this manner I found out that derealization is an OBSESSION, which is very important to know. When I figured this out, I started to starve if the attention it always got, which is very hard because it was always nagging. I started sports, paying attention only to the movements of my body, which is an awesome feeling. I stopped eating sugar and sweets, which helps also. I try to avoid as many passive activities like watching TV. TV makes me feel bad. I draw a lot, play sports and even game intensively. Outside of therapy, I must be honest, its hard work to get rid of DP/DR, it takes discipline. Therapy also, can also not be a walk in the park, you have to adapt to this illness. The way I feel now, after completely losing half a year of my life due to DP/DR, is amazing, I've picked up my life again, I'm still vulnerable to DP/DR, but it bothers me about 10% of what it used to. I can focus on living a full life again. I have noticed that, however awe full DP/DR was, it has made me a better person, it has motivated me to really strive to make the most of my life and accomplish my goals. The only thing I can say, is keep your head up, by working hard, there is a way out.

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Man, 20.y.0.

Hi, my name is Miles and Im 16 y.o., I got depersonalization after I smoked some weed at at party. That evening I did not sleep. When I biked home in the morning I still felt very much under the influence and I felt emotional flattening. It felt like I had no connection to the world, and the by who biked next to me seemed very far away. It really frightened me. I thought I was still under the influence so I went to sleep. When I still felt like that 3 days later, I had a panic attack and locked myself in my room. Then I started looking and I figured out is was derealization. I read that it could go away, and that reassured me. It got less several times, however, it never went away, it always came back. After 4 months I finally told my mother, after I had a panic attack on the soccer field. We ended up going to Ben Meijer, after my mom had called, and he explained it could be cured. That was very reassuring to me. The first sessions were about processing the memories like the panic attacks on the soccer field. The sessions after that were about removing fears like the fear of DP/DR and not wanting to feel certain emotions. I really got to know myself, I had to confront so many things that were unconscious. After all the traumas and fears were processed, the next part of the process was to get back into my body. This means you get to feel inside your body again, and live in the now. The derealization got less right in the middle of the sessions. After about 2 sessions, the DR was only 30 percent of what it was. When I was done with all the sessions, the DR was virtually gone. Unfortunately, the DR came back a little sometimes at school, but that has passed too. When I needed to have surgery, the DR came back a little as well. After doing the exercises, it was gone again. It took about 6 sessions. Ben Meijer is a great guy to talk to, and he hits the nail on the head. I recommend you contact him if you have DP/DR.

Miles

man, 16y.o.